Thursday, November 4, 2010

I'm Not That Great

As I sat on my driveway, getting soaked by a colossal storm, I started thinking about all the things that have happened to me. And the things people have said to me. Maybe it was just my musing, maybe it was God, maybe it was the rain... but whatever it was, I 'heard' something as I sat there.


Do I have the right to say what I deserve? Can I be my own judge and jury? Do I have the wisdom to make that decision? Would I be unbiased? Do I have the experience and know-how? Who am I to have that privilege?


There are animals that act with more wisdom than I do sometimes. Ants gather food in the summer and go under ground for the winter. There's never a bird out in the rain. They are nestled in a safe, dry place well before the clouds let loose.


I cannot place myself above someone else. How can I give advice to someone? How can I give myself advice? Where have I been that gives me that right? When have I been through that experience?
How can my words save the day? They are only words. My advice doesn't do a thing without action. And my advice don't even deserve action. How dare I speak of something I know nothing about?


How can I have convinced myself that I am innocent enough to not deserve what I have gotten? Who am I to tell my friends experiences are wrong? That my knowledge is greater than theirs?


It is not my place.